LUT! (Life Update Time)

For those of you who don’t know, I had my 3rd ACL reconstruction surgery last December. The last several months, my knee has been bothering me again and slowly feeling worse. I had an MRI taken on Tuesday, and this morning we met with my doctor, Dr. D’Alessandro (Check out his experience). He informed us that my ACL is torn again. You know it’s going to be interesting when your doctor is puzzled. Dr. D explained that he only sees this happen in females when they are college soccer players. There has been nothing in the last nine months to cause it to tear again. Before we make any decisions on surgery or anything, Dr. D is having me go to another doctor, Dr. Piasecki (And his too). Once we have the second opinion, they will bring up my case at their next monthly doctor’s panel to hear what other doctors have to say.
So far, here are my options:
  1. Wear a knee brace forever to help with stability, but deal with the pain
  2. Have arthroscopic surgery to clean out cartilage for the pain, and wear a knee brace for stability
  3. Have ACL reconstruction surgery again, using a graph from my left patellar tendon (there is no guarantee this will work, since it’s failed three times already)
  4. Have realignment surgery on my entire leg to balance my body out and prevent this from happening again

I’m not sure why this time around has bothered me so much. I guess the hope of a new doctor and a new ligament blinded me to the possibilities. It makes me want to question everything; my hopes, dreams, faith. 

As I was feeling particularly discouraged, I got on Facebook (because we all know that is a great place to go when we are feeling bad *please note the sarcasm). I saw posts about a friend of a friend’s eight-year-old who has cancer. This little boy is struggling for his life, yet his family is staying strong in Christ. They hope and pray he makes it through. I don’t have to pray that my son makes it to his 10th birthday. I don’t have to look at a young boy and try to explain why God is letting something so awful happen to him.

I woke up this morning. I can breath. I can walk, even if it is painful. I have food on the table. I have a roof over my head. I have family who loves me. I have friends who are there for me. Most of all, I have GOD.  He made me in his image, and even though it is broken, I am perfect in His eyes. He will use this to shape me and I pray that He uses it to help and encourage others. I am HIS. That is enough for me.

When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to know,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
*check out why this song was written*


It is well with my soul.
~Rachel

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  1. Terry JackmanSeptember 28, 2013 at 3:03 PM

    So proud of you, my daughter! God WILL carry us through.....He always does! Love you!

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